I’m one of those people.
One of those people who laughs at her own jokes. One of those who does a fake sounding laugh at the end of telling a funny story.
Before you get a bad impression of me, allow me to explain myself. I do not think I have “the best sense of humour of all time”. I don’t love myself. I have social anxiety. Its pretty damn severe too!
While I’m not 100% sure of why I laugh at my own jokes, I believe I have a pretty good idea of possible reasons.:
- I am laughing to fill the awkward silence that may or may not occur. I think my subconscious is in crisis preparation mode, and anyone with SA will tell you, an awkward silence is always a crisis.
- I’m secretly hoping you’ll join in. You know, ’cause some people might be uncomfortable laughing on their own. This means I’m usually that person.
- I’m actually crying. This one is entirely possible. I get so anxious trying to be funny I’m close to tears. So I try disguise my “please let me die” cry with a laugh. Its kind of like how I make fun of myself. I’m really crying inside
Laughing at jokes is, in my opinion, not a personality flaw. It’s a coping method. And while I really wish I didn’t do it, I’m not going to hate myself for it.